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from visiting her, of the conversation during the interview. A few of these, as a specimen, will be here inserted.

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"Tuesday, October 28, 1823. Called on Mrs. Huntington about half past nine in the morning. Found that she had failed considerably since my last visit. To an inquiry in relation to the state of her mind since Friday, she replied, "I think I have felt more of the presence of Christ than I did when I saw you last. I have not had those strong views and joyful feelings with which I have sometimes been favoured. My mind is. weak, and I cannot direct and fix my thoughts as I once could. But I think I have fled for refuge to lay hold on the hope set before me in the precious Gospel ; and He who is the foundation of that hope will never forsake me." Then, with a most interesting expression of countenance, she said, "I trust we shall meet in heaven, and spend an eternity in praising our dear Redeemer." It was replied, “We shall, if we give him our hearts, and continue faithful to him unto the end." "I feel," she answered, "that I have been very, very unfaithful. But he is merciful, his blood cleanseth from all sin, and I trust he has blotted my sins from the book of his remembrance. Oh, what should we do without Christ ?" "As much debtors,” it was remarked, "to free grace at the end of our course as when we begin it." "More," she replied, "far more; for we sin against greater light and love, after we are born again. Yes, it is all of free grace. If it were not, what would become of me?" It was answered, "You would have perished, justly perished; but now, when you enter heaven, you will stand before the angels, a monument of God's justice, as well as of his free grace, for he is just in justifying those that believe in Jesus.” Yes," she replied, "what a glorious plan! what a precious Sa

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viour! Oh, that I could love him more! Pray that I may love and glorify him for ever."

After prayer, she said, "I hope you pray for me at other times, as well as when you are here. Ask for me the continual presence of Christ, and that I may honour his religion to the end." It was answered, "We constantly remember you in our prayers: many of God's people are deeply interested for you, and are continually supplicating the throne of grace in your behalf." "I know it," she replied; " and that is the reason why I have been favoured with such a comfortable state of mind; for Satan has desired to have me, and to sift me as wheat. I hope they will continue to

pray for me; and may God bless them with the consolations they ask for me." It was remarked, "He who said to Peter, 'I have prayed for thee that thy faith fail not,' is, I trust, continually interceding for you; and him the Father heareth always." She said, "I hope he does intercede for me; and that is one of my greatest consolations; for he will be heard. But, you know, he presents the prayers of the saints; and I want the satisfaction of reflecting that he is continually presenting many of them in behalf of me and my

dear children."

On Friday, October 31st, at nine o'clock A. M. found her more comfortable than on Tuesday last. She said, "My mind has generally been in a peaceful frame since I saw you. But I want to realize the presence and preciousness of Christ, more distinctly and constantly than my great weakness permits me to do." Some remarks were made respecting the provisions of the Covenant of Grace as adapted to all our weaknesses. "The Bible," it was said, "tells us that

He knoweth our frame, he remembereth that we are dust; a bruised reed shall he not break, and the smoking flax shall he not quench;' We have not an

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High Priest which cannot be touched with the feeling of our infirmities, but was in all points tempted like as we are, yet without sin. Let us, therefore, come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need.' She said, "Glorious covenant! precious promises! I have given myself, soul and body, to Him in whom they are all yea and amen, and I do not fear. I desire to have him do with me as it shall please him.”

After prayer she said, "We have indeed a faithful God, a precious Saviour; but how limited our knowledge, how imperfect our views, of eternal things!" It was replied, "What we know not now, we shall know hereafter. Soon, if we are Christians, we shall see face to face, and know even as we are known. And now, we know that when Christ shall appear, if we are the children of God, we shall be like him, for we shall see him as he is." "That," she said, "is enough. How different will be our views! How differently shall we view sin! I seem never to have known what it is, till within the last few weeks.

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now, I am convinced I know very little of its evil and hateful nature. How can we trifle with it as we do ?"

This day had been set apart by the church to which she belonged, as a season of fasting and prayer; the forenoon to be spent, as far as paramount duties would permit, in private devotion, and a meeting of the church to be held in the afternoon, and again in the evening. She alluded to the subject, expressing a hope that it might be a pleasant and profitable season to the whole church, as pleasant and profitable as she had found the last church fast; and added, "I wish I could be with you." It was answered, "You can; we are going to the throne of grace, and you can be there also." She replied, She replied, "I will try. May the Holy

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Spirit be in the midst of you, producing in every heart godly sorrow for past unfaithfulness, and reviving the spirit of obedience and of effort to promote the work of the Lord."

She then inquired respecting the "Ladies Distributing Bible Association," and the Female Associations in connexion with the "Auxiliary Foreign Missionary Society of Boston and Vicinity," which had recently been formed in the city; and, upon receiving some account of them, expressed her satisfaction in being permitted to hear of these new and systematic efforts to extend the Redeemer's kingdom. It was observed, "You see God's work on earth will go on, although you and other instruments are laid aside." She replied, “Oh, what have I been? Nothing. I have done nothing, compared with what I ought to have done. He needs no instruments; it is infinite condescension in him to employ them; and when he takes away those he has employed, he has no further use for them here. I am going, I hope, where I shall serve him better-without sin, and with all my powers, for ever."

"Friday, November 7. To the usual inquiry respecting the state of her mind," she said, " Mrs. Graham accurately describes my feelings, when she says, Thus far has the Lord brought me through the wilderness; bearing, chastising, forgiving, restoring. I am near to Jordon's flood. May my blessed High Priest, and Ark of the Covenant, lead on my staggering steps the little further I have to go.'* I have had no rapturous views of the heaven to which I hope I am going, no longings to depart. But I have generally been enabled to feel a calm submission, and to realize the fulness and the preciousness of the Saviour. I desire to feel perfect resignation to the will of God, because it is his will. 0

* See Life and Writings of Mrs. Isabella Graham, p. 161, third New-York edition.

how sweet, to be willing to be just where, and just what, God pleases! to rejoice that the Lord God omnipotent reigneth, and worketh all things after the counsel of his own will. This, in its perfection, is, I think, a principal source of the happiness of heaven. Pray that God would enable me to feel thus while suffering from weakness and pain, and entering the dark valley."

Frequently, during her sickness, she had expressed to her pastor a desire that he would, if possible, be with her in her last moments. On Thursday, December 4th, he was informed, about three o'clock in the afternoon, that she had failed greatly since morning, and would probably survive but a little longer. He immediately repaired to her residence, and found her sleeping, but very restless, and breathing with great difficulty. She continued in this state, except that respiration became constantly more difficult, through the afternoon and evening. About eleven o'clock the difficulty of breathing became so great, as to overcome the disposition to slumber. Intelligence, it was found, still remained. She was asked "if she knew she was near her end." She answered, by a sign in the affirmative. It was said, "I hope you feel the presence of the Saviour sustaining and comforting you." She assented. "Your faith and hope in him are unshaken?" Her reply was in the affirmative.-A few minutes after, her sight failed; and, at twenty minutes past eleven, her spirit entered into rest.

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Her end was full of peace,

Fitting her uniform piety serene.

'Twas rather the deep humble calm of faith,
Than her high triumph; and resembled more
The unnoticed setting of a clear day's sun,
Than his admired departure in a blaze
Of glory, bursting from a clouded course.

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