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sleep; and at four in the morning rose again, that I might wrestle with the Lord. I prayed, but it seemed in vain. I walked to and fro, groaning for mercy; then fell again on my 06 knees; but the heavens appeared as brass, and hope seemed almost sunk into despair; when suddenly the Lord spake that promise to my heart, "Believe on the Lord Jesus Christ, and thou shalt be saved." I revived, and cried, "Lord, I know this is thy word, and I can depend on it. But what is faith? O shew me how to believe; shew me what is the Gospel faith, or I am yet undone. I desire not de

liverance, except in thine own way; I desire no happiness, but thy favour. What shall I do? O teach me, O help me, or I am lost!" That word came with Divine evidence and sweetness to my heart," Cast all thy care upon him, for he careth for thee." I said, "Lord, dost thou care for me! and is this faith, to cast all my care, even a all my sins, (for I have no other care,) upon thee? May 1? Dost thou bid me? A poor hell-deserving sinner; a sinner against light, and conviction, and repeated vows; can such love dwell in thee? Is it not too easy a way? May I, even I, be saved, if I only cast my soul on Jesus; my burden of sin, my load of guilt, my every crime? What! saved from all this guilt, saved into the favour of God! the holy God! and become his child, and that now, this moment! O it is too great-it cannot be!" O what a struggle had Satan and unbelief, with my helpless, sinful soul! But the Lord applied, "Fear not, only believe." Satan

suggested, "Take care; suppose Jesus Christ should fail thee, suppose he is not God! What, if he were an impostor, as the Jews believe!" But

the agony my soul felt at that moment! I cried, "I am undone without remedy: none but such a Saviour as Jesus declares himself to be, (God as well as man,) can save my guilty, polluted soul. The blood of GOD-MAN alone, can atone for me. His power alone can change my rebel heart; my disease is too deep for any other. I can only perish, nothing can be worse; so there is no hazard. If he be God, he is able, and he will save me according to his promise, "Come unto me all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest." If he be God, he must be Truth, and cannot deceive me. And if not, a holy God will be a consuming fire to the sinner! And there is no Saviour, no way of salvation; I must endure the desert of my sins; I must endure everlasting burnings; and, therefore, here I will lie and perish at his feet! Again it came, Only believe." Lord Jesus,' said I, I will, I do believe I now venture my whole salvation upon thee as God: I put my guilty soul into thy hands, thy blood is sufficient. I cast my soul upon thee, for Time and Eternity." Then did he appear to my salvation. In that moment, my fetters were broken; my bands were loosed; and my soul set at liberty. The love of God was shed abroad in my heart; and I rejoiced with joy unspeakable. Now, if I had possessed ten thousand souls, I could have ventured them all with my Jesus. I would have given them all to him! I felt a thousand promises all my own;

more than a thousand scriptures to confirm my evidence. Such as, "He that believeth shall be saved :-Shall not perish :-Is not condemned: -Hath everlasting life:-Is pa-sed from death unto life-Shall never die :-There is no con demnation to them that are in Christ Jesus :" &c. &c. I could now cal! JESUS Lord, by the Holy Ghost; and the Father, my father. My sins were gone; my soul was happy; and I longed to depart and be with Jesus. I was truly a new creature; and seemed to be in a new world. I could do nothing but love and praise my God; and could not refrain continually repeating, "Thou art my Father!-O God, thou art my God!" while tears of joy ran down my cheeks.

My mother was astonished at the change which appeared in my countenance and whole deport ment; and I soon told her the happy cause ;That I, a poor sinner, had received forgiveness, and could call God my Father and my Friend. "Now," said I, "I am repaid a thousand times for all I have suffered. One hour's experience of what I now feel, is, in itself, rich amends for all! But I see an eternity of bliss before me:" and added, "O that you knew what I feel!" My words, and flowing tears made her weep but she said little, being all wonder. With what joy and gratitude did I now undergo the most servile of all my employments; yea, and it seemed with double strength of body; though I could neither eat nor sleep much for many days and nights. The love of God shed abroad in my heart, was now my meat and

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drink and the thoughts of the amazing depths grace, which had plucked me as a brand from the burning, quite overcame me!-Me, the most obstinate offender, who had so long, and so repeatedly, resisted and grieved his Holy Spirit! This love of my God and Saviour, so unmerited and free, overflowed my soul; nor had I for eight months, any interruption to my bliss.

"Not a cloud did arise, to darken the skies,

Or hide for a moment, my Lord from my eyes.”

Yet I had daily crosses to take up and endure: but I rejoiced in being accounted worthy to bear a cross for him, who died to purchase my peace. The Word of God was sweeter than honey, or the honey-comb. I generally read it on my knees; always receivihg light, strength, and comfort to my hungry soul hereby.

About six months after this, my cousin Robert Roe came from Manchester, to go to the College in Oxford; being intended for a Clergyman. The great change in me, was matter of much grief to him. But what most astonished him, was to find me, instead of being melancholy and mopish, always happy and rejoicing in God; resigned to sufferings and labours, which he well knew, I could not once have submitted to. He saw my pride laid in the dust; and my soul sunk into humility. In short,' he saw me the reverse of all I had been before; and, comparing my present conduct with the Scriptures, he was constrained to own the power of changing grace: was convinced by the Spirit of God that I was right, and, of consequence,

that he was not what he ought to be, and what he must be, if ever he was saved. He soon became so unhappy, that he had no rest, and at last wrote to me, entreating for his souls' sake, that I would answer him the following questions; "How did you obtain the happiness you speak of? Are you certain it is real, and from God; and not a delusion, or imagination only? Does it arise from an express declaration from God; or a consciousness of having performed your duty? Is it some visible mani. festation you enjoy; or some hoped happiness? I know I am a great sinner. I am miserable

beyond expression; and can hardly hope for any thing but misery in time or in eternity! I would give up all the world to obtain the favour of God you speak of; but I know not which way to obtain it. If you can lead me into the heavenly path, you will render me happy indeed. O pray for your unhappy friend, &c. R. R."

These lines appearing the genuine language of sincerity, I wrote immediately in answer, a brief relation of all the Lord's dealings with my soul inviting him to the same loving and all-sufficient Saviour. I advised him to hear the Methodists, and go to Class-meeting; in which he found much comfort, and advanced in grace daily; desiring and seeking nothing but Jesus crucified. And, on October 17, 1775, a few weeks only before he went to Oxford, the Lord set his soul at liberty; and he rejoiced in a clear sense of his pardoning love. [The reader may find a more particular account of the life,